Who else is out there going crazy staying at home, being stressed with health, money, kids and their school work? I have to be honest, all that comes with Covid-19 and 2020 has really kicked my butt. It has been very hard to not only keep my physical health up but my mental and spiritual self has taken a real beating this year. I have been very blessed that I or no one in my immediate family has gotten sick. We are very grateful for our health during times that I know others are really struggling. I cannot say the same things for the mental side of our health:) This has been a trying year.
I wake up every morning to 3 teenagers that I have to for some crazy reason still make them breakfast, do hair, dedicate my entire morning too but finally for the past month they have been going to school. We live in a smaller town and the restrictions are not as bad as they are in other areas. During the Spring and Summer it was tough with my kids home all day, homeschooling, and honestly just entertaining with activities other than me killing them:).The day they went back to school I thought all was going to be right again. Well it is still crazy. I am too busy, I mean really I wake up at 5am and go to bed at 10pm each day. During that time I work my day job, parent, work my own business, clean a house, taxi driver for my kids, and everything else. I don't get a lot of time to myself and it is really catching up to me.
A couple of weeks ago I had a moment with my daughter when I realized that my fuse was getting shorter by the day. I am getting some extra time with my kids and here I am angry and stressed all the time. I have just under 4 years until all my kids graduate high school and who knows what the future holds. I need to really take advantage of my time with them and treasure these moments. So this all sounds good but how do I really change my attitude. It is hard to just one day stop being stressed out and start enjoying this new lifestyle? Well I am not sure I have the answers yet but here are my ideas for getting started.
I need to dedicate 1 hour a day to myself. I don't care how busy I am professionally or my kids are, I need this time. If I need to wake up at 4 am, then that is what is needed to get myself back on track. During my hour I am trying to focus on working out, reading, journaling, meditating, and any other activity that helps bring me peace. My first thought in the morning and my last thought at night needs to be gratitude. Thanking the universe for all the great things in my life, and trust me there are a lot of them once I sat down and starting writing them. I need to take care of my body with healthy food and water. Energy starts with what goes into my body each day.
So all that sounds great, right? I should be "cured" in no time. Well the problem is that I am still struggling on how to decrease my stress, remove my irritability, and just enjoy the moments that I am sharing with my family. I can have moments of enjoyment that get taken over with the stresses of the rest of the day. Is it possible to really forget about all the drama in life and just enjoy spending time with the ones we love, no matter what we are doing? I deep inside my heart believe that the answer is "Yes" but I am not sure how to get there. I have always wanted to try the year of "Yes". I imagine my life just as the Jim Carrey movie, that once you say yes to things you realize there is a whole new world out there. Is that the best way to do it? Can you still fulfill your responsibilities and say yes to everything?
I don't know the answer but I am highly considering trying it. I would love to hear your ideas. How do you bring fun back into our lives without the worry or the stress? How do we learn to enjoy the moments we are in and not take for granted our loved ones around us? How do you remind yourself of these things on a daily basis? Motivation tends to be tough for me to continue working on these things through the process. I love the quote, if you want something different you need to do something different in your life (I forget who said it or how exactly they said it). I need to change some things up and the year of yes is sounding like the right idea to close out 2020! Get your fresh roasted BFF Coffees and lets discuss!